it is better
I love this picture. It was taken in joy, riding a kiddie train with my son and the other first graders, but it belongs with the dark feelings of yesterday, when I visited a nursing home with a few ladies from church. Although I am trying to be as nondramatic as possible right now, there are days when I can’t help myself.
May you never grow old.
May you never face
the long, slow loss of your humanity
the undeveloping of body and mind.
May you never face a ceiling
for days and nights on end
trapped in a place that is not home
trapped in a body that played you false.
Their souls look out through their eyes.
They are malnourished
their hearts grown scrawny and potbellied
in a desperate need for human connection.
Do I matter?
Do you see me?
Do you know?
I looked in through a surreal window,
a soul connection I did not believe possible
and almost I could not tear myself away.
I looked in
and their eyes locked on mine
the confusion the tears and the silence swam between us.
I am a very small girl
but I promise you Jesus
I will do what I can.