Just one more

“Here is a beautiful pinecone, even though it’s a little squished

And that big big dandelion begs to come home with me.

This would be a good stick for swatting ants

And I will take another just in case it breaks.

Here is a pine swishy thing that looks so pretty and feels so soft.

Can you carry some, Mommy?”

Here is a turned-up nose with three freckles on it, tipped toward my face

And here is a child I love.

This is the prettiest day we share, and the wind is soft. I’ll take it along.

I’ll gather the sunshine in one hand

And tuck my pinkie finger around this glorious April, so radiant.

My hands are full, Lord. I want just one more thing.

“Oh look, Mommy, there’s a pond here.

Do you want a violet to eat? I might have to put down some things

But maybe if I just pinch the leaf under my arm

And put the pebble in my pocket, because it has those twinkles in it…

Now I can take a clump of these too, what are they? Bluets?

And still I can hold the sumac.”

I tease her that she might as well take the world. Should we

Scoop up the lake, gather the whole green woods?

Does she want the clear sky and the row of tulips? But I

Am not so different. I want the rich textured trunk where the bark has fallen away

And left the pathways of a thousand hidden things.

I want to fill my hands with the luxuriant smell of the earth.

Here are the eggs my son gathers and lines up for breakfast

And this is a gift baked with love, filled with warm chocolate chips.

I treasure the pucker of a baby’s lip, a leisurely drive with my teen, and

The smile on a growing girl’s face when she did a good job.

I gather one more hug, one morning when we wake up healthy, and

Three more recipes to try. I brush my fingers over his skin.

I want another day in my own home, waking up to the coffee he brewed

I collect my children’s voices, their bickering and jokes around the supper table.

Here is a memory I will keep, and a color that makes meaning of the universe.

I want one more May and the planting of seeds, I ache for the silken end of a ponytail and

A new cup of tea with a friend. I want what I have

A world full of treasures, brimming, too many to carry home.

9 thoughts on “Just one more”

  1. Thank you Shari for drawing attention to all these small but wonderful things that God blesses us with each day.
    I have tried to remember gratefulness this Covid year. But I must confess that I feel a little weary as we in Ontario enter yet another stay at home order.
    But I can enjoy daffodils, sticks, pine cones, and good food all at home.

  2. It takes opening our eyes, doesn’t it? Choosing to see what we’ve been given and what is there for us to gather in and enjoy, rather than focusing on all that is broken or not ours. With thanksgiving, Sarah

  3. These words make my heart
    Ache
    In a good way
    I think.

    Too many hasty words on my tongue
    Too much anxiety in my mind
    Too little time spent taking in the glorious
    April
    With the soft pink weeping cherry trees
    And the sunny daffodils
    And the blue sky
    That sometimes turns white with the clouds.

    But I want it to be blue, says a 3 yr old
    That I love
    With curls and blue eyes like
    Blueberries
    Who goes dancing on tiptoe
    Singing made up songs about lots of stories before naptime
    And planting stinky trees with white flowers
    And Jesus loves me.

    My hands have been hanging down
    Like my head
    Too afraid to gather it in
    Lest I drop some.

    Lord, lift my eyes
    And my hands
    And let me gather it in.

    If some slips from my grasp
    Then thank you for the blessings so abundant
    That I cannot hold them all.

  4. Love this so much!!! Jenny almost makes me feel like I’ve known you since you were a little gal of 5 years old.

  5. I found something entirely different in these word pictures; curious whether you intentionally put it there. I think maybe so…????
    It’s in the phrase, “too many to carry home”
    . We scoop and cling and hold and always reach for one more. Treasuring it all is important, but eventually, in the end, we’ll need to lay it all down. As much as we think we need it, we always need to remember that where we’re going, home, it’s all already there.

    1. Sometimes I write about things that I don’t even understand myself. I think I was talking about “abundance” and “overflow”… but also “release” and “inability to hoard”… Your hidden meaning makes me cry. Yes, that is part of it. <3

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