I feel silly continuing our conversation this week, when my days are jampacked with community and family events – Mother’s Day, piano recital, field events, end of school, high school graduation for my firstborn. I will write about some of those things soon, and right now I am busy living them. But if I don’t share the following comments soon, they will become obsolete – and I wanted to say thank you.
(And drive home an important point. Brace yourself.)
Thank you for talking to me.
Was I right or what?
You were there,
words on the tip of your tongue,
not checked out or bored but crowded around waiting.
I could feel you.
(And in answer to your question, yes – I did regret
saying I’d answer you all.
You can see that I can’t do that all the time, can’t you?
But it was fun too,
I am not as brave as you think I am.
I’ve told you that before.
(If I were really brave, I’d share a follow up post
for all the people too stubborn to comment on the last post,
people who rolled their eyes at commenting when asked to.
Oh yes, I can see you too.
I like the stubborn and snarky ones,
But about bravery:
Put yourself in my shoes for just a moment.
How can I write to a people I can’t see?
I cannot connect to a crowd (much less a faceless crowd),
only to individuals,
which is what you are.
I know it’s vulnerable to speak up.
Believe me, I know
how vulnerable it is to speak up.
But, or rather and so,
if you want me to keep writing, this has to be
a two way street,
more chat room than soliloquy
or I dry right up.
I can’t help it.
So thank you for being brave.
I loved that when you talked, you also started talking to each other,
with a prayer and love and empathy and reassurance.
My favorite things.
You don’t have to speak out in this particular space,
don’t have to show your heart to Shari –
because I’m just one woman writing; this place one spot in thousands.
But if you want connection, you have to show that heart somewhere.
(Preferably IRL, you know? but online is good too sometimes.)
if you want me to share mine in this space,
you should trade me a little bit
from time to time.
And yes, I mean you. Not her or them. You.
Will you do that for me?
I hope you already are, in many beautiful places.
Fun giveaway coming up soon.
If there’s something you’d like to hear me talk about soon, share it here… ???? even though I’m really bad at following up on suggestions like this. But maybe you will spark my interest. For myself, I’m perfectly happy continuing to write about chickens and TP.